When I was young, I used to think about life and death often. But since I started going to church I really don't think about it much anymore. I had decided which path to follow and the funny thing is, it had nothing to do with eternal life. Back when I was young and searching for the bigger purpose of life, I reflected on what it must have been like to actually meet Jesus. What he must have been like to make people drop everything and follow him. What was it about him which set him apart so that people recognized him and wanted to follow him? Now there is no biblical backup for this but I think it was something in his eyes. Something about the way he looked at people which expressed his absolute love for them. Not a lustful look but a look of genuine love and concern for everyone he looked at. As I read the Bible with the perspective of God being a loving God I realized that someone who loves us so much knows what he is doing. There are a lot of things which happen in life which I don't like or enjoy and I may not fully even understand why they happen but, that doesn't mean God loves us any less. Someone who goes so far as to sacrifice his son for us loves us in ways I cannot fully comprehend. Love like that from the creator of the universe? I may not understand or like everything he does but I have to trust that he has a purpose and reason behind it all, he knows what it takes for us to live a fulfilled life here on earth. I trust that a creator who loves us so much is going to give us good direction in life and I want to follow that. I'm not going to lie, I struggle with it often. And I think a lot of people warp his teachings to fit their own agenda. But overall, it is the path I want to continue down because I have seen a lot of positive change in my life. Most importantly however, I can feel the love of God in my life. What I feel is just a fraction of the love that is there, but it is something to experience. I wish everyone could experience such love.
